Time changes everything, even you and I have changed
rachelsongg♥
15 this year, 1001.
aka prettysong, fabsong, gorgeoussong etc.
aka that girl with a striking lime green bag and hot pink shoes.
Don't ever step on them I'm telling you.
a City Harvester and a St Nicks student.
I sprint and dance! (ain't I cool)
I have a really sweet tooth!
I can't bake.
BFFLs with Greyson Chance and marrying Alfie Deyes!♥
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The rain, the winter spring has made us fade away
I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone
Hey guys, sorry for neglecting this page again. I'm sorry in advance if reading this makes you feel a little depressed and reflective, I just felt like sharing my emotions and typing it all out here. It's almost 12 midnight now, a good time for reflections.
Yup, these weeks after the exams have been quite tough for me. I've never really felt this way before. Flunking chemistry and physics (and maybe geography too) and all the school problems just coincidentally clashes together. It's hard for me to keep a smile for others despite all these. You know, maybe my expectations were too high. I wished 2013 would be a carefree year, but a term has not even passed and I'm facing with so much problems in my life. Stress regarding my suckish results among all the smart people in my class, bad stuff happening to my friends, I just can't handle them all together. It's not just emotionally draining, but physically draining too. After I run, my stomach just cant stop churning due to some unknown reasons. I don't even know if I can make it into school team.
I think my bipolar mood is getting out of hand. Sometimes, I just felt like I've let everyone down. Just that feeling without a proper reason behind it. I don't even know why I'm behaving like that. Even though you clearly know that the person is not angry at you, you just somehow think they are. Everything makes me so frustrated and urghhhhh. As much as I want those problems to be solved, I seem to be running away from them every single time. But running away is not the solution to it.
However, these are the times where you see all your true friends appearing and caring for you. Without a doubt, I can say that it's almost those times where I realised how much care and love I have from other people. I don't know if people could see the sadness in my eyes (I hope it's not too obvious) but just those simple questions like "Are you okay?" is enough to take my mind off those depressing stuff. I'm really thankful for all of you guys that made me feel important and stronger. It is often what we think that predicts how we see the situation as. Shit happens, but it is how we view it that matters. It could be a new opportunity or the worst disaster, depending on how we think of it to be like.
Well, I guess being strong is the only choice for me. People might try to bring me down, but I ain't got time to deal with that. It is usually the strong one that wins the battle. I'll just have to lift my head up and cast out all those sad thoughts. Anyway, I didn't do anything wrong so I shouldn't be feeling guilty about anything. There's nothing to fear when your conscious is clear. (lol sounds like I'm being arrested or something) I believe that with a little more perseverance, everything would be over. Just gonna be fearless and face every problem with pride.
That's all I wanna say right now. I realised I'm not very good at blogging about stuff like these 'cause I would take up so much time on it. Oh wells, please be a good week for me and my dearies. Despite all these, I just wanna thank God for everything that He has blessed me with. Praise the Lord. (:
awesome fellowship with the two awesome cell groups on Saturday!
